does anyone still read this at all?

october 15, 2006. what a day. let me tell you a little bit about today.

today is the first rainy day of the year. that's right folks, winter is finally almost here. can't say i'm looking forward to winter, because i hate it, but for some reason the rain today made me feel good. maybe because it didn't seem like it isn't a total loss of a day, because it's raining. or maybe the rain is a cleansing change of scenery. maybe i just don't care.

today is the day i was supposed to be getting a (gasp) nose job. yes for those of you who didn't know, i'm planning on getting one. like, really. yeah i don't mind sharing it, everyone knows my nose (har har) is a giant. i was really looking foward to it. i was supposed to be, right now, taking a nap with a cast on my nose and dosed up on pain killers. but instead i'm...whining about other stuff.

today is also the day whose previous night i spent at the hospital. because the entire previous week i had spent having serious digestive issues, on both ends, as well as serious cramps. let's put it this way - it was one of the stinkiest most painful weeks of my life. i had lost a considerable amount of weight because i couldn't eat, barely drink. i had to go to clinic to get iv fluids twice because my body was just exhausted. now that i've started moving again, my back and legs are aching. finally yesterday i was feeling a whole lot better. i even ate! i was hungry! i ate a sweet potato and i also had some bread. man was i proud. finally the evening arrived. that's when things turned bad again. i started having the worst stomach pain of my life. i was yelling and crying, while rolled up on my bed and sweating. i begged my mom to take me to the hospital.*
of course by the time we got to the hospital the pain had gone. they decided to poke my arms in 20 different places anyway and take tubes of my BLOOD in order to have it examined. i also had to admit to the doctor that i was having safe sex. in front of my mom. hmm...at least he asked my dad to step out before he asked me. i just kinda stared at him and didn't look at my mom for about 5 minutes. anywho, they found out i have a problem with my liver. yeah, my liver's sick. they're not sure what's wrong with it, but we're hoping it's not serious. meanwhile, i haven't turned yellow, which is always a good sign concerning liveration. and i'm not sure how my liver having an infection would affect my digestive system, but okay.

today i had cheese for the first time in a week. you know, the white 5% fat cheese, the kind we gave to my dog. oh, boy. i also had a little cucumber. i'm making serious progress today guys, you should be proud. now i'm trying to stay awake, seeing as we spent the entire night at the hospital. i really really want to go back to work. at least i got a new computer now! i spent the last week at home with no computer, i nearly lost my mind.

so just in case anyone read this far, remember:
my liver needs your love(r)! and don't drink and drive. later gators.

*i received quite a culture shock at the hospital. it was the one located in jerusalem, where we all know there are all different kinds of people from all different religions. 3 to be specific. so there i was, sporting sweats and my "i celebrate israel" in bold letters tshirt that my good friends mark n james had sent over from stanford, as i was surrounded by religious jewish and muslim people. next time i make a run to the hospital i should seriously consider what i'm wearing first. it was a bit awkward. but then again, people could have been staring at me just because well, let's face it, i am gorgeous. yeah.